|12:17 am - Church|
I don't go to church to praise God. I've been knocked down so hard on account of trying to serve Him that any attempt at praise wouldn't just be listless and devoid of passion. It would be a total lie. I don't love God. I hate Him.
But I still go to church. And I think it's my way of saying, "Fuck you, Asshole!" No matter how unfaithful He was to me, I'll still try to be as faithful as I can be and keep His commandment to go.
Jesus Christ... I think myself better than God. This is insane.
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